bored!

don't spend your life to impressed people around you, but do what you like...

impressed? not to impress....what i like? what i don't like? money? job? future prospect? music?
simple...i like music...talent? where is it? miss piano, miss violin...but i don't know how to help myself:(

job...good job...flexible timing...normal ok pay...no future prospect but i had a great time of having fun to learn this freaking awesome language, German!!! but money, no money...pay loan...buy iphone...all gone...

i like music...i tried all the best i can to indulge myself...first: go thai music! play this awesome ragnat ek lek! altho is an accompaniment instrument...second: try very hard to have ensemble with friend, but very hard makes me very tired...bcos the place is freaking far...ang moh kio..so i decided not to be crazy...third, i taught choir...although i told myself it is a simple one...but i found the joy...altho i m not really doing that great, tat SMART on show...but i m trying to make myself happy, may be make my parents proud a little for embedding these musical cells into my body since i was 4...they spend may be few hundred Ks for my music educations.

earn money...strategy : go teach tuition...but i kind of bored! i feel no challenge in tuition...me student never listen to me teach, so how? teach take money, spend!

what i have bought:
1. die Festplatte (1 Tera)
2. die Uhr (Casio)
3. die Kamera Tasche
4. ein paar Kleid
5. ein Buch heisst hatten wir uns die Jahren eine Frau verlieben...(duno correct or not)
....
later on will have
6. iphone!!!

big spender! i found no fun to just earn money but when spending is great? but beside shopping what can i do in order not to make myself so bored?

how eh how eh....not yet graduate, hope to graduate, after graduate what is my aim huh? Wo ist mein Ziel?

Mum said because i have no bf, so i am bored...when i request to go home, they are not allowed...first time, my mum not allow...birthday is so important to celebrate at hometown beside of this stranger place although i have fun by singing k for all the day...but i feel meaningless, boring and i force myself to be happy, to smile to laugh...there is no place like home

2nd, I want to go back for CNY...i have so many days of leave and my boss told me off not to take leave on CNY...LOL... ridiculous..but it make sense because the freaking busy NUS is still having term time...a lot of preparation for teaching materials is needed. so wat? cannot go home again loh...

When i reach home, i feel singapore better, because at home i have a sister who always makes us like enermy and strangers...zomok? why she is like this? can she cooperate? i even lose my room lose my favourite doll, all the cutie thgy i like...she duno help me to throw to where...as if the room is all belongs to her...but not a single bed, a single doll or a single softtoy is belong to me?! but all is mine though when i was a teenager...yea
when was it? teenager? 10 yrs ago? when she was in UNI?

So, Klang become not a home for me, singapore definitely not a home for me...then where is my home? don't tell me Deutschland? the place where no bah kut teh, no rice? i will die? sometimes, i doubt if i really want to go there and live...

bla things out is fun...may be needs a bf...but i think too much...bf good kah? later he makes my decision runtuh cannot hold stiff can't go Germany because i don't want to have a long distance love? is it? is it?

How do i know?

SO many i don't know makes my life so bored...useless me...shameless me...23 yrs old but do nothing...

BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...shout out loud!

Don't assume you understand me well!!!!

Can you gimme time to explain...so that you understand me MORE?

Don't always self centered and thk you are always right. Don't always think that fyp is the most tiring things. The year 3 is tiring too...

I feel like get more sleeps, get more rests instead of going to NTU to play badminton from this week onwards. Is that mean to be flykites? I just feel like stay in my room, hug my comp, hug my books, hug my violin? How so? I super feel like that....I don't want to step out from NUS from this week onwards...Don't come near to me!!!

And yes, i spoiled this roommate until she think i am super nice, super sweet. She wants a rental of keeping my luggage 80 SGD....wat the hell? I am ain't rich dear. As far as i put at my friend place, even is a 3 months vacation, i only pay them 50 dollars! So what's now? Because of ur work and travel, i have to subsidize u? So, who going to subsidize me and my violin? Stop to be ridiculous dear. I treat you as well as i can, i off the light to let u sleep better, but you didn't since last sem? I help you to fill water from the kitchen which is km..s away, and you just sit there and laugh loudly or sing ugly with the taiwan entertainment show. And one more thg...u ain't honest to me, u are bringing someone back to stay in the room during vacation, and took my bed too...I feel bad...why don't you charge him/her in order to subsidized? but me? think twice when u did tat to me...

So, can you guys be fair to me? I am trying my best to find the balance point. Don't keep blaming me...I am awful and pitiful too...

Theives!!!!

有贼有贼，住处有贼
防贼防贼，大家该防贼
我的巧克力，咖啡，芝士，被贼偷了
我的灵魂也被偷走了
考试时，巧克力是我的生命
他们不在，我也不在
贼贼贼
贼贼
偷吧，大可以大方的跟我要
我可以施舍给你们
阿弥陀佛
善哉善哉