想见，不想见，想见，不想见，想见，不想见，还是不敢见，但还是得见。
毕竟欠他一个人情，一个打从心底的感激。不管那人嘴巴再坏，举止再没礼貌，毕竟他仍然是那个当年送炒饭，苹果的他。那个会将火车票背面写满字后，塞进我计算机里的他，那个独一无二吝啬的他，那个当年仍然拿着钥匙却开不了门的他。
不知为何，一直很想证明自己活得很好，这条不归卖猪仔的路，再难走，再摇摇欲晃，我也要走得漂亮。穿了一件普通得再普通不过的裙子，选择炎热天气仍然要长发飘飘，表面不介意自己的装扮，但仍然看了又看镜子中的自己。戴上耳机，用着iphone,读着小说，十足有气质的女生。跟当年的我，应该大有进步！大方请了他吃晚餐，因为是我欠下的那餐sake sushii...曾吃了他一碗拉面，然后问他“若有一天，我答应你，你会再请我吃吗？”答案是不会。哈哈，很好笑。他说我没有很胖，我很高兴，我真的没有很胖。就真的会在意他的意见？ 为什么会在意？
当他很讽刺说我数学很烂，我仍然会生气，当他问我的文凭是第几级的时候，我答不出，转头说“不要问，好吗？”他就不问了。仍然，喜欢让他自大，自吹牛，然后告诉他，是啦，你很厉害！你最厉害！ 然后很害怕当他看我手机里的照片。因为，里面有白色小熊的照片。其实，那么多年，收尽那么多礼物，我仍然爱泰迪熊，我仍然喜欢那一只。
有时候在想，为什么那个要追求我的人，脑电波总是不会和我相吸，就一定要给我一些大人用的物品吗？我还是个女孩，仍然有女孩的想法，不想长大。恨的那个人，永远就做不到我心中想要的。牙痒痒的恨，不能接受，也不愿再想接受。给了那么多次的暗示，叫他别等了，但他此终都在等。真希望那个人会来看这个post.，不喜欢就不喜欢了，喜欢的时光，已经不在了。选，我当初没有选择他，因为心里有那个人，可是现在没有了，真的没有了。
当他说我手心会流汗，紧张的时候会流汗，因为以前碰过我的手！哎哟，我还会紧张把手收起，警告他不可以乱碰！哈哈
朋友，我永远只会把他当朋友。当看见药物名称，疾病名称不懂，害怕，恐惧，就可以找他。他应该不是第九流说谎的医生。告诉他我低血压常晕倒，倒想看看他的反应，紧张？嚣张？还是不加以理会？答案竟然是，等我帮你读医疗资料再给你劝告。
衷心希望他能找到一个可以跟他一起吝啬的女孩，可以在他很忙时，不会埋怨，在他背后支持他的女孩，不是因为他是医生，有很好的收入才和他与之偕老的女孩。
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Friday, April 27, 2012
怦然vs聊一聊
每次看见电视剧男女主角的激情，自己也会幻想，噢，若有一天，我也遇见我的那个他，然后也发生了故事的情节，想必会很爽？很幸福？心跳加速？这就是怦然的感觉。女性荷尔蒙很奇特，偶尔会盼望着刺激，激情，突如其来的心跳感觉。女性需要男性的一个有力的拥抱，一个肯定的眼神，一个你是属于我的肯定。往往着也需要一个东西叫“时机”。当错误的举动发生在错误的时机，将会结不了果。一旦时机对了就促成一对情侣。
创业容易，守业难。创情容易，守情难？ 难在何处？维持怦然的感觉？ 然后，需要聊一聊。哈哈！不知每对情人是否是很好聊， 才会成为情人？若问我现在有没有聊得来的好朋友，我的答案仍然是没有。还么真正找到一个可以每次让我诉苦，然后他可以懂得我在想什么的人。目前那个最懂我的还是我的阿涅，妈妈:) 我大小事务仍然是妈妈，妈妈的叫着。从来还没有人可以给我一个安全感，一个让我倾诉的空间。大多的朋友，时常思想和我还是差异较大。
难。现在大部分的时间都离乡，有时想找人聊一聊还真的很难。有时心烦，得到朋友的建议，却是自己不是很想听的话。不是一拍即合的那种。
我觉得爱情需要一个真正可以聊一聊的人，然后这个人要令我有怦然心跳的感觉，然后可以信赖，倾诉的对象。这是我单方面觉得应该的想法。而我，我也要做他的聊一聊？他的怦然吗？
讲简单啦，现在一个弧形对象都没有，讲啥？
创业容易，守业难。创情容易，守情难？ 难在何处？维持怦然的感觉？ 然后，需要聊一聊。哈哈！不知每对情人是否是很好聊， 才会成为情人？若问我现在有没有聊得来的好朋友，我的答案仍然是没有。还么真正找到一个可以每次让我诉苦，然后他可以懂得我在想什么的人。目前那个最懂我的还是我的阿涅，妈妈:) 我大小事务仍然是妈妈，妈妈的叫着。从来还没有人可以给我一个安全感，一个让我倾诉的空间。大多的朋友，时常思想和我还是差异较大。
难。现在大部分的时间都离乡，有时想找人聊一聊还真的很难。有时心烦，得到朋友的建议，却是自己不是很想听的话。不是一拍即合的那种。
我觉得爱情需要一个真正可以聊一聊的人，然后这个人要令我有怦然心跳的感觉，然后可以信赖，倾诉的对象。这是我单方面觉得应该的想法。而我，我也要做他的聊一聊？他的怦然吗？
讲简单啦，现在一个弧形对象都没有，讲啥？
Saturday, March 31, 2012
好high哦
他在我的人生说实在的影响很大。因为看他快乐的弹奏音乐，自己也因为他的细心栽培而变得很有自信！每次的考试都得到很好很好的成绩。
因为他，自己开始感性的感受每件事情，或许也因为他，自己选择了坎坷的新家坡。他令我觉得干修音乐系是没用，必须靠人生的历念才会进步。他令我知道事实就是事实。可我那片爱音乐的心，也是由他启蒙。那片为了音乐可以废寝忘食，惱自己真笨，惱自己为什么想不通。甚至现在迟迟不敢找音乐老师，深怕再也遇不到像他一样好的音乐老师。
我很纳闷，因为离开音乐很远。当初修德文是因为音乐，如今因德文而得到了这份工。我到底想怎样？
高兴的是，他竟然会fb我，去我家拜访我家人，还是一个很好很好的老师，还会和我去吃饭，不会忘掉这个对音乐没有坚持的学生。我很拼命的去找表演音乐的平台，可是如今你要我弹，我却怯，你要我拉，我却一窍不通。佩多华（贝多芬的译名），你可醒了？你到底想怎样？
Friday, November 25, 2011
she~
she always talk about people's weakness and forget about own self.
she always too sensitive and pointing fingers that people never respect her.
she always assume that what she think is correct but not others.
she always think that herself is the most busiest person in the world but not others.
she always like to complain.
she said she is very tame, but she did show her temper to everyone?
please think about your own self before pointing fingers on other person. No one is 100 percent correct but not you too~
she always disturb me while i want to watch drama
she herself watch drama and it is fine
she always control people not to talk loudly...but when she high high dei, she can talk as loud as she can
i am ok to speak english, but how about others? yes, people are trying to joke with you, but why not you take it as a challenge to just learn it?
Is it so difficult to just learn but not to complain?
yes, it is not comfortable...but me and you are different...when it is freaking hard, i will try my best to freaking understand it, although the language is an UFO language for me
she~ complain, always tot she is 100 percent correct, comment about people living style, but her living style is perfect fine good...awesome!
can't she just keep the thing to her but not complaining in my ears...i don't like to observe people weakness but i like to remember how awesome the person is!
she always talk about people's weakness and forget about own self.
she always too sensitive and pointing fingers that people never respect her.
she always assume that what she think is correct but not others.
she always think that herself is the most busiest person in the world but not others.
she always like to complain.
she said she is very tame, but she did show her temper to everyone?
please think about your own self before pointing fingers on other person. No one is 100 percent correct but not you too~
she always disturb me while i want to watch drama
she herself watch drama and it is fine
she always control people not to talk loudly...but when she high high dei, she can talk as loud as she can
i am ok to speak english, but how about others? yes, people are trying to joke with you, but why not you take it as a challenge to just learn it?
Is it so difficult to just learn but not to complain?
yes, it is not comfortable...but me and you are different...when it is freaking hard, i will try my best to freaking understand it, although the language is an UFO language for me
she~ complain, always tot she is 100 percent correct, comment about people living style, but her living style is perfect fine good...awesome!
can't she just keep the thing to her but not complaining in my ears...i don't like to observe people weakness but i like to remember how awesome the person is!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
Deutsch
i feel very funny when
i heard the Deutsch 1 people said...
ich brauche gehen...
i need to go if we uebersetzen it to english...
so LOL...wonder if i did this mistake when i was in Deutsch 1...
Look back to the pass, i really improve quite a bit although i am not yet at the level of Deutsch 5...but at least...i can still speak a better one...
Toi Toi Toi fuer meine Muenliche Pruefung!
LOL!!!
i heard the Deutsch 1 people said...
ich brauche gehen...
i need to go if we uebersetzen it to english...
so LOL...wonder if i did this mistake when i was in Deutsch 1...
Look back to the pass, i really improve quite a bit although i am not yet at the level of Deutsch 5...but at least...i can still speak a better one...
Toi Toi Toi fuer meine Muenliche Pruefung!
LOL!!!
bored!
don't spend your life to impressed people around you, but do what you like...
impressed? not to impress....what i like? what i don't like? money? job? future prospect? music?
simple...i like music...talent? where is it? miss piano, miss violin...but i don't know how to help myself:(
job...good job...flexible timing...normal ok pay...no future prospect but i had a great time of having fun to learn this freaking awesome language, German!!! but money, no money...pay loan...buy iphone...all gone...
i like music...i tried all the best i can to indulge myself...first: go thai music! play this awesome ragnat ek lek! altho is an accompaniment instrument...second: try very hard to have ensemble with friend, but very hard makes me very tired...bcos the place is freaking far...ang moh kio..so i decided not to be crazy...third, i taught choir...although i told myself it is a simple one...but i found the joy...altho i m not really doing that great, tat SMART on show...but i m trying to make myself happy, may be make my parents proud a little for embedding these musical cells into my body since i was 4...they spend may be few hundred Ks for my music educations.
earn money...strategy : go teach tuition...but i kind of bored! i feel no challenge in tuition...me student never listen to me teach, so how? teach take money, spend!
what i have bought:
1. die Festplatte (1 Tera)
2. die Uhr (Casio)
3. die Kamera Tasche
4. ein paar Kleid
5. ein Buch heisst hatten wir uns die Jahren eine Frau verlieben...(duno correct or not)
....
later on will have
6. iphone!!!
big spender! i found no fun to just earn money but when spending is great? but beside shopping what can i do in order not to make myself so bored?
how eh how eh....not yet graduate, hope to graduate, after graduate what is my aim huh? Wo ist mein Ziel?
Mum said because i have no bf, so i am bored...when i request to go home, they are not allowed...first time, my mum not allow...birthday is so important to celebrate at hometown beside of this stranger place although i have fun by singing k for all the day...but i feel meaningless, boring and i force myself to be happy, to smile to laugh...there is no place like home
2nd, I want to go back for CNY...i have so many days of leave and my boss told me off not to take leave on CNY...LOL... ridiculous..but it make sense because the freaking busy NUS is still having term time...a lot of preparation for teaching materials is needed. so wat? cannot go home again loh...
When i reach home, i feel singapore better, because at home i have a sister who always makes us like enermy and strangers...zomok? why she is like this? can she cooperate? i even lose my room lose my favourite doll, all the cutie thgy i like...she duno help me to throw to where...as if the room is all belongs to her...but not a single bed, a single doll or a single softtoy is belong to me?! but all is mine though when i was a teenager...yea
when was it? teenager? 10 yrs ago? when she was in UNI?
So, Klang become not a home for me, singapore definitely not a home for me...then where is my home? don't tell me Deutschland? the place where no bah kut teh, no rice? i will die? sometimes, i doubt if i really want to go there and live...
bla things out is fun...may be needs a bf...but i think too much...bf good kah? later he makes my decision runtuh cannot hold stiff can't go Germany because i don't want to have a long distance love? is it? is it?
How do i know?
SO many i don't know makes my life so bored...useless me...shameless me...23 yrs old but do nothing...
BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...shout out loud!
impressed? not to impress....what i like? what i don't like? money? job? future prospect? music?
simple...i like music...talent? where is it? miss piano, miss violin...but i don't know how to help myself:(
job...good job...flexible timing...normal ok pay...no future prospect but i had a great time of having fun to learn this freaking awesome language, German!!! but money, no money...pay loan...buy iphone...all gone...
i like music...i tried all the best i can to indulge myself...first: go thai music! play this awesome ragnat ek lek! altho is an accompaniment instrument...second: try very hard to have ensemble with friend, but very hard makes me very tired...bcos the place is freaking far...ang moh kio..so i decided not to be crazy...third, i taught choir...although i told myself it is a simple one...but i found the joy...altho i m not really doing that great, tat SMART on show...but i m trying to make myself happy, may be make my parents proud a little for embedding these musical cells into my body since i was 4...they spend may be few hundred Ks for my music educations.
earn money...strategy : go teach tuition...but i kind of bored! i feel no challenge in tuition...me student never listen to me teach, so how? teach take money, spend!
what i have bought:
1. die Festplatte (1 Tera)
2. die Uhr (Casio)
3. die Kamera Tasche
4. ein paar Kleid
5. ein Buch heisst hatten wir uns die Jahren eine Frau verlieben...(duno correct or not)
....
later on will have
6. iphone!!!
big spender! i found no fun to just earn money but when spending is great? but beside shopping what can i do in order not to make myself so bored?
how eh how eh....not yet graduate, hope to graduate, after graduate what is my aim huh? Wo ist mein Ziel?
Mum said because i have no bf, so i am bored...when i request to go home, they are not allowed...first time, my mum not allow...birthday is so important to celebrate at hometown beside of this stranger place although i have fun by singing k for all the day...but i feel meaningless, boring and i force myself to be happy, to smile to laugh...there is no place like home
2nd, I want to go back for CNY...i have so many days of leave and my boss told me off not to take leave on CNY...LOL... ridiculous..but it make sense because the freaking busy NUS is still having term time...a lot of preparation for teaching materials is needed. so wat? cannot go home again loh...
When i reach home, i feel singapore better, because at home i have a sister who always makes us like enermy and strangers...zomok? why she is like this? can she cooperate? i even lose my room lose my favourite doll, all the cutie thgy i like...she duno help me to throw to where...as if the room is all belongs to her...but not a single bed, a single doll or a single softtoy is belong to me?! but all is mine though when i was a teenager...yea
when was it? teenager? 10 yrs ago? when she was in UNI?
So, Klang become not a home for me, singapore definitely not a home for me...then where is my home? don't tell me Deutschland? the place where no bah kut teh, no rice? i will die? sometimes, i doubt if i really want to go there and live...
bla things out is fun...may be needs a bf...but i think too much...bf good kah? later he makes my decision runtuh cannot hold stiff can't go Germany because i don't want to have a long distance love? is it? is it?
How do i know?
SO many i don't know makes my life so bored...useless me...shameless me...23 yrs old but do nothing...
BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...shout out loud!
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