shinny shinny day ^^

Recipe of the day:

Miso soup + lotsa lotsa Mushroom + tauhu + seaweed = TASTE GOODDDDDD
Lady fingers + egg plant + tomyam curry seasoning = SMELLLLLLL GOOOOOOD

Sum = Nice Nice Lunch :)

People of the day:

My sis: She looks pretty lazy today:)
She was sleeping at my side just now and is crawling to her bed now:)
She drove me home from working place just now.
I proud of her getting used to the manual little white proton saga. Sis, you are great. Last time, you aren't that great but now you are. ( Although ppl horns bhind you, haha)

Pets of the day:

My doggie, 3 legs doggie. You are crazy. You bites me when i going out to hang my clothes. You climb over my body. You tear away the newspaper! Arghhh.... But we love you so much:) Muacks little doggie.

Songs of the day:
Erm...listening to joey yong's song. Mom says she likes " Amazing Grace" Oh yea...me too:)

Work of the day:
Hmmm... My autocad drawing... Drew, lights, switch, fan, air cond, water heater...I printed one for my own self safekeeping:) woohooo...Will be engineers somedays.....hahahahahah

Alright, i love today....A Cheerful one:) yabiyabadibadoo................

You never learn to appreciate when your children beside you

Since young, i love my family and my parents a lot. I was thinking next year i will be stepped in my working life and not be able to come back to my home sweet home.

Therefore, i was trying very hard to persuade myself to go back home and have my internship near my hometown. In fact, i have did it by working at a five minutes drive distance's company.

I not really feel that i learn anything in the company. I feel like i learn nothing but only typing which is a skill i have already mastered in my primary school. Not even that, the boss there ask me to learn from the Malay girl about skill of drafting letter...HAHAHAHA...funny...i know everything better than the Malay girl regards to computer.

I feel the boredom of working life and i feel no challenging making me bored all the way.

I hope to have a happy weekend everytimes.

But now, you make me down.

What you have done to me and why did i sleep so early every night is because of you.
Not that praying and believe in god is not good but you are just too much...until you forget the existing of your husband and children.
I don't want to blame you for praying god because believe in god is a good practice. I did that also, but you are just too much.

You had used up my relaxing time to have your learning bible session, you used up my time of practicing piano. However, you blame me facing my computer without doing anything and you blame me about my learning about mathematics.

Hey, do you really know why did i choose to come back to Malaysia?
I miss my piano, my everything which i can't do everyday in Singapore.
You don't really know me but you pretend you are.
You know God more than me. I am not jealous but you are not going to appreciate the existing of me.

Well, i don' t know what will happen. I will just leave you here one day when i trying to achieve my dream.

I love you but i have to leave you someday....
I beg you to appreciate the existing of me from this moment...
I hope you are..

不要诬蔑我

星星知道我的心事。

太阳知道我的正直。

云朵知道我的洁白。

雨滴洗脱我的罪名。

微风吹干我的泪滴。

毒蛇般的言语，

说我的不是，

蝎子般的心，

说我不忠。

沉重的责备，

像落井下石，

非要把我打得皮开肉绽。

那一幕直到今日我仍然历历在目。

我需要门时，你把我的门给堵着。

我需要窗时，你用木板把它钉了个交叉。

急需救我的人， 我感激救过我的人。

虽然我浑身是伤，但我捡回一条小命。

感激。

但，

我还是无法原谅诬蔑过我的人。

造口业

我，
坏了，
不孝，
不爱，
生恨，
厌恶，
诬蔑，
诽谤，
不敬。

叛逆，
顶嘴，
幼稚，
没有大智慧，
以小人之心度君子之腑。

为什么，二十来岁还是长不大？
不细心，
不忍耐，
动不动就哭，闹.

我的忍在哪里？
静在哪里？

我很坏很坏很坏很坏:(

刺

那根刺
插在我心里
痛得厉害
无法拔掉。

痛，虽已麻， 但有时一碰到它，
那一根刺的周围又是隐隐作痛。

我仍然怪着那不小心的我，
让这根刺给刺伤，
仍怪着那贪玩的我，
在两年前攀山越岭时，碰上这根刺。

伤痕累累， 也伤了其他的关节，
已到了没有勇气再站起来，
亡羊补牢，也太迟了。

怎么补救？

再不补救，这根刺又在掀起，
当它令我隐隐作痛时，
我会更恨我自己，又更加厌恶这根刺。

怎么办？ 怎么办？

应该集中精神，专一， 才会成功

看完了汤杯，觉得中国赢得实至名归。 他们的集中精神，努力抗战到底，是很值得学习。虽然林丹很骄傲，但他骄傲得起， 他有那一份不败，有信心的力量，让他在球场上不败！ 虽然他有时也会高估自己，但是他对每一份比赛的努力，用心，是普通的凡人做不到。

到底，人生最重要是要做到自己喜欢的东西，然后做到底，抗战，努力，让自己骄傲，就是成功。我也要享受这一份骄傲。 可是眼前这一门数学，我还是捉不到他的奥妙，我仍然不会让我自己沉迷，努力。往往每次我对着它，我的脑袋觉得它很枯燥。怎么办？

我还在寻寻觅觅，还在找着一个不在心底的热诚。

心啊心。。。。你在哪里了呢？ 你要快快在这一个暑假里，加油。不要每天facebook, 不要在发梦了。

我闷慌了， 很想回到没有电子诱惑的从前。很想为自己的学习付出一些。

我没有定，没有集中精神，没有专一，所以，没有成功。

我知道弱点了。干嘛我还不付出? 我还真是有点不了解自己。

感慨的大学生涯

很快的把大二念完。 我想大二不辛苦，因为对自己的要求也没有很高了。打击也没有太大。害怕慢慢变成勇气， 孤单变成享受，残酷换来接受，失败变成鼓励。看的人和事，每一个学期都不一样，学着不会因为环境改变太大而影响了自己的情绪。逆来顺受，冷静面对它。 觉得应该发泄时，就跑回房间抱着枕头，把脸埋进去，哭个半小时就好了。

大二，会令我开始想着未来。因为，还没进大学前，从来不知道自己要些什么。我想，我不回读数学研究所，我应该不会继续研究数学的生涯。我想，我不想当一个正常的上班族。

我要：当学徒，做企业家。这个不简单，可是，很想试。我的愿望只是要赚下我人生的第一桶金，我就会乖乖的做一个正常的女人，女儿。以家庭为重。我只想要享受一下努力后，成功的快感。

我要：我有了小钱后，我要研究音乐，我要做我喜欢的音乐。它还是我的至爱。

呵呵，不过，这些愿望理想还是会有变数，接受和面对是最重要，努力吧:)