she~

she always talk about people's weakness and forget about own self.

she always too sensitive and pointing fingers that people never respect her.

she always assume that what she think is correct but not others.

she always think that herself is the most busiest person in the world but not others.

she always like to complain.

she said she is very tame, but she did show her temper to everyone?

please think about your own self before pointing fingers on other person. No one is 100 percent correct but not you too~

she always disturb me while i want to watch drama

she herself watch drama and it is fine

she always control people not to talk loudly...but when she high high dei, she can talk as loud as she can

i am ok to speak english, but how about others? yes, people are trying to joke with you, but why not you take it as a challenge to just learn it?

Is it so difficult to just learn but not to complain?

yes, it is not comfortable...but me and you are different...when it is freaking hard, i will try my best to freaking understand it, although the language is an UFO language for me

she~ complain, always tot she is 100 percent correct, comment about people living style, but her living style is perfect fine good...awesome!

can't she just keep the thing to her but not complaining in my ears...i don't like to observe people weakness but i like to remember how awesome the person is!

也许我太仲意你直到对你的要求比任何人还高？！

我想，我应该放弃仲意你，我越给机会，我越失望。我越想这样，就会变那样。

我要把它埋葬，不要看，不要想，忘掉那一份仲意，就不会那么的辛苦。

放过我， 仲意不要粘着我， 那时曾经的仲意，现在，我很想丢掉 这份仲意。

垃圾车快点来。帮我 把仲意倒掉！

我要过另一个新的生活。不要来烦我！

我画，用力的画休止符！句号！

Deutsch

i feel very funny when

i heard the Deutsch 1 people said...

ich brauche gehen...

i need to go if we uebersetzen it to english...

so LOL...wonder if i did this mistake when i was in Deutsch 1...

Look back to the pass, i really improve quite a bit although i am not yet at the level of Deutsch 5...but at least...i can still speak a better one...

Toi Toi Toi fuer meine Muenliche Pruefung!

LOL!!!

bored!

don't spend your life to impressed people around you, but do what you like...

impressed? not to impress....what i like? what i don't like? money? job? future prospect? music?
simple...i like music...talent? where is it? miss piano, miss violin...but i don't know how to help myself:(

job...good job...flexible timing...normal ok pay...no future prospect but i had a great time of having fun to learn this freaking awesome language, German!!! but money, no money...pay loan...buy iphone...all gone...

i like music...i tried all the best i can to indulge myself...first: go thai music! play this awesome ragnat ek lek! altho is an accompaniment instrument...second: try very hard to have ensemble with friend, but very hard makes me very tired...bcos the place is freaking far...ang moh kio..so i decided not to be crazy...third, i taught choir...although i told myself it is a simple one...but i found the joy...altho i m not really doing that great, tat SMART on show...but i m trying to make myself happy, may be make my parents proud a little for embedding these musical cells into my body since i was 4...they spend may be few hundred Ks for my music educations.

earn money...strategy : go teach tuition...but i kind of bored! i feel no challenge in tuition...me student never listen to me teach, so how? teach take money, spend!

what i have bought:
1. die Festplatte (1 Tera)
2. die Uhr (Casio)
3. die Kamera Tasche
4. ein paar Kleid
5. ein Buch heisst hatten wir uns die Jahren eine Frau verlieben...(duno correct or not)
....
later on will have
6. iphone!!!

big spender! i found no fun to just earn money but when spending is great? but beside shopping what can i do in order not to make myself so bored?

how eh how eh....not yet graduate, hope to graduate, after graduate what is my aim huh? Wo ist mein Ziel?

Mum said because i have no bf, so i am bored...when i request to go home, they are not allowed...first time, my mum not allow...birthday is so important to celebrate at hometown beside of this stranger place although i have fun by singing k for all the day...but i feel meaningless, boring and i force myself to be happy, to smile to laugh...there is no place like home

2nd, I want to go back for CNY...i have so many days of leave and my boss told me off not to take leave on CNY...LOL... ridiculous..but it make sense because the freaking busy NUS is still having term time...a lot of preparation for teaching materials is needed. so wat? cannot go home again loh...

When i reach home, i feel singapore better, because at home i have a sister who always makes us like enermy and strangers...zomok? why she is like this? can she cooperate? i even lose my room lose my favourite doll, all the cutie thgy i like...she duno help me to throw to where...as if the room is all belongs to her...but not a single bed, a single doll or a single softtoy is belong to me?! but all is mine though when i was a teenager...yea
when was it? teenager? 10 yrs ago? when she was in UNI?

So, Klang become not a home for me, singapore definitely not a home for me...then where is my home? don't tell me Deutschland? the place where no bah kut teh, no rice? i will die? sometimes, i doubt if i really want to go there and live...

bla things out is fun...may be needs a bf...but i think too much...bf good kah? later he makes my decision runtuh cannot hold stiff can't go Germany because i don't want to have a long distance love? is it? is it?

How do i know?

SO many i don't know makes my life so bored...useless me...shameless me...23 yrs old but do nothing...

BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...shout out loud!

没有facebook & 没有工作的日子

郁闷，烦躁？
太空闲？
吃喝拉撒睡？样样做齐
花钱像喝水
有家归不得？
睡醒看着电脑，抢先观看韩剧
没人看过的也看，看过了的再看。
小提琴，拉腻
没有钱，没有导师。

这是要怎样？

facebook 遭害客入侵！整个profile 被盗走！

停！！！喊停！！！整个给终止吧！

希望我的下周一会是蓝色的。我要蓝色星期一，因为没有工作的日子实在难熬！

快快快快！

我的重新出发

这是我第一次坐在这里写文章。
环境，人，事，物已经大大的不同。
我的人生求学的阶段应该算是正式的结束。来到这个现实社会，在一个月里长大了不少。
从找房子，到困难重重找室友，亲自安装网站到购买家里的日常用品，电风扇，都是我和玉倩在打点。有时觉得其实不用做那么多，自然有人会帮。可是因为责任感太重也自然而然的打点了，要不然每个晚上都会睡得不安稳。为什么其他室友都不会当那些问题是一件事，而我却忙到连跟妈妈skype，也会觉得烦，脾气不好。算了吧，还是别计较，阿弥陀佛。爸爸妈妈对不起。

其实我很满意现在这个房子，虽然第一个月份开销可真不少。但万事起头难，有了爸爸妈妈的财力支柱应该也不会有太大的问题。我庆幸在还没有毕业之前已经找到了工作。我那烂到不敢见人的成绩，竟然教授会要我帮他做研究。也太妙了吧。感恩阿弥陀佛的保佑。

虽然我仍然没有安全感，时常会心烦，找工作。新加坡很现实，成绩要好，要是新加坡公民/PR才能顺利得到工作。那天，到了观音亭去求签，签里说我遇仙，得到佛菩萨的保佑。四方平稳。我才真正睡了个好觉。把放在身上许久的重担放了下来。

我的未来。我要把我失去的重新学回来。爱~音乐，可是现在没钱去爱。
希望每一天都能幸福，开心，满足，阿弥陀佛。

Don't assume you understand me well!!!!

Can you gimme time to explain...so that you understand me MORE?

Don't always self centered and thk you are always right. Don't always think that fyp is the most tiring things. The year 3 is tiring too...

I feel like get more sleeps, get more rests instead of going to NTU to play badminton from this week onwards. Is that mean to be flykites? I just feel like stay in my room, hug my comp, hug my books, hug my violin? How so? I super feel like that....I don't want to step out from NUS from this week onwards...Don't come near to me!!!

And yes, i spoiled this roommate until she think i am super nice, super sweet. She wants a rental of keeping my luggage 80 SGD....wat the hell? I am ain't rich dear. As far as i put at my friend place, even is a 3 months vacation, i only pay them 50 dollars! So what's now? Because of ur work and travel, i have to subsidize u? So, who going to subsidize me and my violin? Stop to be ridiculous dear. I treat you as well as i can, i off the light to let u sleep better, but you didn't since last sem? I help you to fill water from the kitchen which is km..s away, and you just sit there and laugh loudly or sing ugly with the taiwan entertainment show. And one more thg...u ain't honest to me, u are bringing someone back to stay in the room during vacation, and took my bed too...I feel bad...why don't you charge him/her in order to subsidized? but me? think twice when u did tat to me...

So, can you guys be fair to me? I am trying my best to find the balance point. Don't keep blaming me...I am awful and pitiful too...