Thursday, July 30, 2009

Wait


I am waiting...waiting for stress...waiting to struggle...waiting to run my brain hopelessly.
I have imagined my brain turn into Tauhu this semester...bcos i even outbidded in my bidding.
Why am i always so dumb and being not scared to loose?
Why am i so careless in doing everything...without thinking the worse things would fall on me?
Why am i grab info so slowly when i am having lecture class?
Why am i always study and restudy but almost 50% of the information cannot enter my brain?
What am i waiting for?
I am waiting for the day to graduate...
For almost one year of my experience through my course, i have a very huge feeling of failure.
In my life of almost 20 years, i do not encounter such failure b4.
May be math not suitable for me. Why am i always surviving when in high school even Pre U?
However, when come to uni everything has changed...
The changes is much too fast until i have forgetten what is the feeling of sad, disappointed and finally giving up but not giving in.
I wish to take something which i really like it...which i can take it without stress...
something which i really enjoy and be happy when study although it is tough....
I need to focus and find my talent...it is so unobvious!
where is my talent now?
definitely not the formulae for my applied math now...i think i m in wrong way...not the right way smooth way...i have to die die take it for at least this few yrs...then i will fly for my dream.
I must promise myself...i will find my dream after this rediculous 3 yrs...
I must...
Is a must ....

Friday, July 24, 2009

Claire de Lune


皎洁的月亮- clear moon....by Debussy

很久以前有弹过debussy 的歌, 总是弹不好,感觉很奇怪。事隔多年,经过了twilight 的洗礼后,还有我伤心又痛苦的经历,开心的现在, 让我更加珍惜每个音符的美妙, 谢谢,以前老师的教导。

突然,好开心, 因为寻回那种热爱音乐的心情,那种有满足感的感觉,心里真的会开心,会温暖, 会想象浪漫的气息,空气会突然清新。。。

好开心哦! 

Thursday, July 23, 2009

恶梦


看到这幅甜美的小猫咪的照相, 都会令人觉得会是一场 好梦, 怎么会是恶梦?哈

一场作夜所发的梦,

动画介绍

甲猫:像图画那只白猫,很美,可是很无能,  应该是我来的。

乙猫 :很帅的猫, 应该是男的,样貌不详

丙猫 :小猫一名, 黑色脸,白色身体。

丁猫 :母猫一名,黑色脸, 白色身体,很凶狠。

梦完第一部分,我惊醒,大概是被欺负得遍体鳞伤后,被吓醒。 而第二部分,就是到现在我还牢牢记在脑海,大概7 点早上开始梦的。

话说, 甲猫和乙猫是很要好的朋友,他们在窗户(白色英国式的窗户)看着美丽的夜景, 突然丙猫很坏蛋, 就特地布下陷阱, 用力的咬了甲猫一口, 推她朝窗口的方向去。结果, 乙猫替甲猫站稳 了。他们不以为然, 继续欣赏夜景。 

结果,丙猫不但没有停止他那无聊的举动,还在丁猫那里煽风点火, 丁猫怒了, 毛发站了起来, 扑向甲猫,甲猫失去平稳度,失足跌到窗户去, 前面两只脚扣着窗口后腿却吊在那儿,不能动荡。

乙猫不得不反抗, 随即向丁猫扑去, 在她肩膀和脸上扯了一块肉, 残忍! 丁猫血流不止,死了!

丙猫想要推开甲猫的前脚,让她坠楼身亡。 机灵的乙猫把他捉了起来, 从高楼丢了他下去,救了甲猫!

-end of story-

试着想想我是那只甲猫,哈多恐怖啊!

p/s: 日有所思, 夜有所梦; 我竟然把twilight,那个edward 扯了那个坏的vampire, james 的一块肉的那一幕给搬进猫和梦的梦境里!惨!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

New Moon Review


So nice to keep a synopsis on my own blog b4 i become very busy with my studies and forget about the twilight series. Yeah!

Happy birthday to Bella. She is celebrating her 18th birthday with her family. A camera from her father, a scrapbooks which needs photo to fill it up from her mother, an aeroplane tickets from Esme and Carlisle,  stereo system for her old trek from Emmett, Rosalie, Alice and Jasper. Is it a great birthday? NO, it is a start of her nightmare. She has a present wrapper cuts her finger, she drops a single drop of blood on the carpet. Jasper burst from his thirst and try to attack her. Edward wants to protect Bella by pushing away Jasper to knock the white grand piano and pushing her aside until she knocks the wall and scratch her arms. Stitches all over her arms to stop her from bleeding.

Edward has realized the danger that will killed Bella. He and his family will creates danger for bella. He is dilemma whether has to flight or fight. The flight is: he must leave Bella alone and not to disturb her life by giving her the original life she had. The fight is: stay with her and creates her to become one of his type one day. Edward doesn't want to change Bella into vampire to prevent her from danger, he decided to leave. "Goodbye Bella" He kissed her and left her in the meadow. She fainted in the meadow and breath unconsciously without the existence of her lung.

Everyday, every night, she screams and awake from her nightmare. It is not a horrible, terrifying one, but is a dream which is empty, nothing inside, nothing, only left her alone in the meadow. Time flew, she has to try her best to adapt her daily routine life, take care of Charlie, have fun with school friends. However, she still deeply in love with Edward and miss his voices a lot. She likes to endanger herself with silly activities such as motorcycles rides and heading inside a pub which a lot of De Javu welcoming her inside. She wants to hear Edward's voice to stop her, to scold her. The more she put herself in danger, the stronger she heard Edward's voice in her head. She even believes that Edward will show up and save her if she is going to die. 

She seeks comfort from her friend Jacob Black who has eased her pain over losing Edward. One day, she hang out with Jacob and Mike Newton for movie. Here, Jacob confesses that he has a different feeling with her, he loves her more than the loves of friendships. Bella shocked. From that day, Jacob doesn't show up. Bella has worried about his safety because he has told her the youngster in La Push, Quil and gang has followed Sam Uley to becomes the reservation members for La Push. They has grown up taller and full with muscles, sometimes, they are not allow to talk and be friend with Jacob anymore. 

Loneliness back to Bella when she no longer accompanied by Jacob as in Jacob avoid himself from her. She is bored and try to hike in the forest to find the meadow where she and Edward hang out those days. Her dad, Charlie has warned her that it is danger to go for hiking because of the appearance of animals trying to kill human being. However, Bella has ignored the advise.  A very familiar meadow with sun shine on the pathway appear in front of Bella. A very familiar shadow appeared, not Edward but Laurent. Laurent told her, Victoria is seeking her for revenge for her soul mate, James. Will be good if Bella die under his thirst rather than die under Victoria's plan. " Mouthwatering!" Laurent repeated. Edward murmured in Bella's head, " Not to move an inch" Here, there comes a gang of big wolves, chase over Laurent and kill him. 

Bella is safe now and she has figured out Jacob Black is a werewolf. Bella are now exploring herself with a lot of Quileutes Legends, werewolf stories and back to become Jacob's friend again. Jacob is quite "pushy" and concerns to become Bella's boy friend rather than friend. However, Bella doesn't want to exceed the limit of friendships because she is still in love with Edward. 

Again, Bella wanted to hear Edward's voice is then urge her to jump from the cliff at La Push beach. Jacob has saved her. A miscommunication has lead Edward to believe that Bella has killed herself by listening Jacob answer the phone that Charlie is out for a funeral. Edward has gone to the Volturi, vampire royalty at Italy to kill himself. Alice in hurry comes to Bella and told her Edward is in danger in order to bring her to save him. Alice who sees the future know that Edward is going to walk to the sun and show himself sparkle in the public in order to get attention of the Volturi. (Volturi not allowed any of the vampire to show their existence in the public, they keep vampire in secret so they can co- exist with human). 

Time, hours, minutes, seconds, Bella shorts of time...Anyway, she manage to run across the square and just in time to save Edward from his silly act. Before leaving Italy, the Volturi royalty which leads by Aro, Caius and Marcus are eager to talk to Edward. The Volturi guard arrested Edward, Bella and Alice and lead them from the ground of Volterra Square to the cold and dark underground and finally lead them to a luxurious hall. Bella shivered a lot because of the coldness and the scary phenomena. 

Introduce super nature power of Vampire

Alec: A gifted vampire who has the power to make the enemies blind and deaf.

Jane: A gifted vampire who has the power to torture and pour the pain on people.

Edward : A gifted vampire who can read others mind 

Alice : A gifted vampire who can see the future of others and herself.

Jasper: A gifted vampire who can control others feeling.

Aro is interested with Edward's and Alice's talent and tend to invite them to the Volturi. He is even interested in Bella, because he can't read Bella's mind. He is curious what will happened to Bella if she has become a Vampire. He is worry about the Cullen will broaden their power because their family members will be increased and talented. They try to have some excuses to test and destroy Bella. Aro orders Jane to torture Bella, but Bella never hurts but Edward did hurt because he is the one who try to protect Bella. Finally, Caius is frustrated and tend to give Edward 2 options: 1st: destroy Bella. 2nd: turn her into vampire because she has know too much of vampire stuffs.  Bella urged Edward to "mean it" to turn her to vampire. She is ready for that!Aro claimed they will visit the Cullens to check whether Bella are turned into vampire or not in few months time. They leave Italy at last. 

When they return to Forks, Bella told Edward she needs Edward in order to keep herself alive. She hopes Edward will never leave her again and forgive him. She wants the Cullens to vote whether to change her into vampire or not and the answer is yes.... everyone agree except Edward and Rosalie. Meanwhile, Edward gives her 2 choices : change to become vampire by Carlisle after her graduation or marry Edward and let him change her himself.  

Victoria is still taking the revenge on her own in the meanwhile... after the dead of Laurent.

 




Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Twilight 回顾



从英国回来已经有两个星期。这两个星期没有常常上网,完全投入在这个虚幻有僵尸和狼人还有人类的世界里。 其实, 我已渐渐觉得没有上网其实生活才真正的有意义。 没有MSN ,没有伊妹儿,没有FACEBOOK, 没有部落阁,没有sms, 我感觉到很轻松, 像回到中学时期, 我没有这些诱惑,很专心。 爽!我在想:如果我可以抱着同样的态度面对我的课本,那就太好了!

1. twilight: story started with a girl, Isabella Swan, she went from Seattle to Forks and stayed with her father while her mother is getting marry with a young man, Phil. She does not really like her life, but she is trying hard to adapt it. She meets a guy, weird guy, Edward Cullen, who gives her a weird reaction when they first have their biology class together. She is interested in him, however he didn't show up in school for nearly a week. One day, Bella nearly knocked by her friend's car in school compound and saved by Edward. The speed and strength that Edward showed up makes Bella confuse and curious. She wanted to find the answer, but Edward doesn't feel like giving her the proper answer. He wanted to keep some distance between himself and Bella. Here, Bella is joining her friends to La Push, she found the legends of Quileute, the cold ones, the vampires which related to Cullen's family(vegetarian coven). Another day, when Bella is going to a book shop near Port Angeles. She meets De Javu, here comes Edward to save her. Accidentally, she has touched Edward's hand... woo! extremely cold. That night, Bella did not sleep well, she google the legends of Quileute and suspects that Edward is actually ---> a vampire!

As for Edward's side, he doesn't know why he can't read Bella's mind. He curious about what is the girl thinking about most of the time. Bella told him, she suspected him is a vampire. A basic question " What do i drink?" being asked by Edward. The answer is : blood.  So, a vampire in love with a human; a lion in love with a lamb.  

Bella's Quote" First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him."

The challenges has come, Edward brought Bella to play Baseball with his family in a clearing field. Here comes the nomad coven to join their games, Laurent-the leader, James-the tracker and Victoria. (James and Victoria are soul mates. ) A wind blew towards Bella and stings James, the tracker, he 'flings' out a word "You brought a snack!"to Edwards. The games announced to start! Bella is in danger. She must leaves her father immediately while Edwards, Rosalie and Emmett have to catch James and kill him b4 he reaches Bella. 

Human always has a weak instinct. Bella has been told by James over the phone that her mother , Renee is in danger. She bites her lips and go to the Ballet room to meet her mother and face James without acknowledges Edward. Here, James traps her,  knocks her until she bleeds, steps her with his strong foot, bites her hand with his venom. Angriness force Edward to tear James into pieces. Urgently, Bella needs Edward to survive. Carlisle Cullen, the doctor, advice Edward to make his decision fast, whether to suck the venom out from Bella's hand to prevent her from immortal. Edward doubts whether he could make it by overcome his thirst. 

Finally, Bella is safe from becomes a vampire and end up healing in the hospital. The story throwing out a quires b4 its end. Did Edward will change Bella into Vampire as he promised her? It will eventually against the treaty that the Quileutes and Cullens  have made. Cullens cannot change any of the human in Forks to become vampire. If so, how did Bella and Edward love each others forever? Victoria will come for revenge as Edward has killed her mate, James.