蛇棋

爱情仿佛像盘蛇棋般，开始难，想要结束，得到满分一百更难。
开始时，要转骰子，转到六？有那么幸运，得到对方的同意，自己合心意，才能正式宣布开始。
途中坎坷，有甜有苦，时而幸运的得到梯子，直上得到高分；时而被蛇咬，摔一跤跌倒谷底。吵架，分手，结合，为了理想，梦想，信念的不同，可能跌到谷底，可能更加甜蜜。这都完全没有保证。直到在蛇棋盘里，你看见朋友每每都赢了，得到一百分，你却还在五十，更糟的是，还在起跑点转着六。羡慕妒忌，会因为时间渐渐年龄的增长，令人焦虑。
别说起跑点，再厉害，比起其他的朋友提早转到“六",又如何？
当你觉得他就是你的命中注定，跟定白头偕老，爬到了99 ，突然来了一个不是  "1" 是一个其他的数目，然后倒退，接着被一条长长的大蛇咬。一跌，跌到了“2”重新开始。
那个心态该怎么调整。突然失去所有，可以不崩溃吗？

爱情根本不可靠
爱情根本是毒药
有，未必会是幸福
没有，也未必是不幸
顺其自然，需要缘分，幸运，
才能爬到一百
白头偕老

祝福自己转到一个六，也祝福其他的恋人，顺利爬到一百，别跌下来。
人生需要耐心，信心，平常心，加油吧，恋人，单独的人。

小自恋

很娇，很风骚

幸福，真的真心祝你幸福

大家都很漂亮哦

做指甲去

有时觉得自己漂亮

有时觉得自己懒散

我要做漂漂亮亮的二十六！

我要活得美美精彩❤️

关心

为何还是如此关心？

可以无视我的存在，让我自生自灭也许比较好过

也许吧也许

也许我还是会不好过

我到底想要什么

遗忘是痛苦的

科技发达的时代往往选择遗忘或不想知道是件很难的事

Facebook, Twitter 所有的社交网络将会不停不停的提醒你

你老了，进度慢

别人在实现梦想时，就不停地在提醒你的梦想在哪里？实现了多少？

别人在幸福美满时，就不停地提醒你的幸福在哪里？

比较往往都会存在，说不比较是骗人的

想无视也很艰难，因为手机上网太方便

每见一次，苦一次

我宁愿永远不联系，比较容易遗忘

快走，快走，几时可以逃离？

我越来越不懂得微笑，我的笑也越来越不真实，怎么办？怎么办？

很彷徨，再也不像以前快乐的我。

难道社交网站真的可以改变一个人的心态，甚至人生？

外刚内柔？外柔内刚？

哪个好？

我是哪个？

我想我应该是外刚内柔

不好～

软弱的心，别人永远看破不了

外表太强硬

假装，伪装坚强

假装没事，没有放在心上

假装没哭，可是心里流着泪

只有妈妈，只有妈妈看得见

只有自己，只有自己听得见

永远都是说话刚烈，其实心里没有那样的意思

永远情绪失控，操纵了爆发式的性格，无法挽回

欲希望这点会让别人看穿，那就会完全赤裸的被人了解

该要等人了解，倒不如试着外柔内刚

到底个性和性格，哪个是可以操控？

应该是性格可以被改变

所以外柔内刚是性格吗？还是个性？

试试吧，也许这会使我没那么难受，更加坚定坚持，改变我的三十，我的人生

该走，就该走

拜托提起精神努力向上。

既然选择了离开，就要不顾一切的离开。不然那心里放着的痛，怎么会值得？

选择了不规律的冒险，为何还不出发，受不了自己的一拖再拖，到底自己心里在想什么。

我的能量去了哪里？我需要支持。我的心在哪里？我需要相信自己。

不管冒险的路途有多远，我要坚持的走下去。不管多孤独，心里流着泪，都要坚强的走下去。

把我自己放在如果我不去，如果我选择了…我一定一定会后悔。

所以，为什么还要等？为什么不走？

对的人

对的人很重要

对的人会改变你一生

下的赌注，会一盘回本

未来就无忧

但谁又能向你保证他是对的人？

Real man pick up the pieces

Well, this is actually the fact when a girl trying to be adventurous and tried out new boy friend. Parents will worried, even the girl herself is not confidence that she made a right choice. It's just a try an error, no one will be able to guarantee her future except herself.

She decides, she tries and it might be the boy hurts her, or both hurting each other, or found out not compatible. They gave up, he let go her hands, she fall and she breaks

Daddy came into her life, pick up the pieces of her heart. Mommy came along, cook her favorite dish, pat hear head, sleep together with her as what she did when she was young. 

Oh Lord, may family always together and support each other since there's evil, unhappy moment out there.

Just can't imagine my life without parents. If I were an orphan, I shouldn't be exist in the world ... Can't imagine how difficult kids out there without family around.

嗨，你好！

嗨，你好！

你是……

一个不多话的印象

运动型

很酷

很正

谢谢你当了我的镜子

我看了看你，看了看自己

我没长大

他，长大了

我盼望成熟的他，忘了改变幼齿的自己

让我好好想想如何成为成熟的二十

改变软弱，害怕，无自信的自己

吸引另一个成熟的他

娃娃自恋狂

打扮，是我以前从未做过的事

这是成长，还是为了引起注意？

好事还是坏事？

时代

谢谢你们陪我走过年少轻狂的时代

原来我是生在福中不知福，谢谢你们让我醒悟，我将会好好把握我下一个转角幸福。

不管你们在哪儿，和谁在一起，都真心的祝福，你们有着纯真，愉快的笑容。

这一篇，永远都 是我记忆里最好的回忆

My siblings are selfish

After years, I still think that my siblings are extremely selfish. Since young they do not care about others, they care their own happiness, they are ridiculous person, they don't be considerate. apparently they are the elder siblings, I should be blessed because I am taken care of. But so far, I taken care of by my parents but I don't think they do especially my brother.

The selfish and irresponsible brother who run away from responsibility with only taking my parents advantage and money.

My sister is selfish with her emotion, jealousy hatred. When everything comes together she can't think straight and start to argue why brother can enjoy luxurious of selfish but she can't. There, she follow and become selfish.

Loud applause. Sometimes I think my brother has to be educate better, so that he won't affect his sisters and disturb our feelings. Wonder if he knows he has fault though, either he knows it but pretend or he is totally blunt.

What to do ? I am learning to let things go. I shall find my own happiness and own life instead of holding on to this family relationship which doesn't work at all 

自信心

其实，我一直都质疑我的能力

运动, 智力，音乐

我都在质疑。

其实我会游泳，但我怕海洋，水，海浪

其实我的数学suduko很好，但我怕算错，连累我队全军覆没

其实我会也喜欢音乐，可是对小提琴没有信心

其实信心应该是要相信自己，别人才会相信你

我没有相信自己，没有给自己自信

我怕连累大家

是不对不好的性格

也许因为这，我无法骑脚踏车，攀岩，划船，潜水

因为我随时觉得自己会跌死，溺死，撞死

我也不是很乐观的人，很多时候就觉得自己无能，笨…

是时候相信自己的能力，把它给呈现出来，不该做个没自信的人

九十度踩空滑板

这东西其实外表恐怖，但刺激度也还好而已

恐怖在于心理障碍，压抑的情绪，紧密关闭的管道，黑暗，流水的速度，踩空，还有帮你倒数的声音

有勇气的你可以二话不说就上了。但胆怯的我也就扭扭捏捏，从走近管道，到把门关上，再看着服务员，自己开回那扇门，跑了出来，再努力的吸了一口气。看见小朋友玩得如此兴奋，我也忍不住想要再度鼓起勇气尝试。

碰！也就挑战成功

其实人生也一样，看似恐怖，不知未来

但鼓起勇气走下去，也就不过是还好而已。活得精彩，刺激，恐怖也就只不过是过程。

放弃

人热血到了一个时候，就选择放弃，

放掉友情，家人

执着的想要，是如此的辛苦

当所有的人不停不停的把你往外推

你很努力的想要靠近，如此费劲力气

最后无法承受，无力

只想放弃

强求应该无效

父母要对孙子的爱，就让他爱

要忽略你的感受就让他们去吧

朋友忘了怎么对你好，忘了关怀

也就让他们遗忘吧

世界没有什么没有不能活的

有，固然开心

没有，也就坦然伤感而已

想流泪就流泪

没有人会同情

就自己同情自己，再活到悲惨里去

直到可能找到爱自己的人

或者也许永远都找不到

人是喜欢欢乐的结局

但，也就只有庆幸才会有如此的结局啊

最大的失望

世界不过最大的失望就是家人和友谊

掏心掏肺最后是掏空

说是把你放在心上

所以才可以不理你

说是最疼爱你

可是却把你推开

不管如何努力讨好

越努力，越失望

到最后，不想再努力

想要去，就自己去

想要玩，自己玩

不必等待，因为没有人会因为你的请求而相让

一切一切全然都是自私

不顾及其他人

都是自私

把这些自私的人都丢掉

没有心思去理会，也不想再努力的花心思

最后换来是一层一层的绝望

Colors

Lazy weekend, I love to sort my clothes with colours!!!! 😘😘

借口

当你从相信别人的借口，到无所谓，反正是假的借口，逐渐证明了放下，接受。再也没有任何牙痒痒的感觉，想生气也不会再有力气，想痛骂也不会再想理会。

也许麻木的感觉将要来临。说话也逐渐从讽刺变得淡淡无所谓。

好，这是成长过程的一种，学会了无视，不用理会太多，也不用夹杂太多情绪。

淡淡的度过生活吧，不用加以太多的情绪，想法，介意。就让它淡淡的慢慢的麻木的度过吧。

琴。情。

小时弹琴的观众是爸爸妈妈。爸爸在看报纸，妈妈在缝衣服剪报。

长大了拉小提琴，竟然只有熊熊，羊羊，企鹅，猪猪，老鼠倾听。

我永远长不大，永远期盼还能回到从前。

有一天，我一定要站在台上，拉提琴给世界各地观众听，爸爸妈妈坐在台下再一次像小时候一样当我的观众。我要令他们感到骄傲！

微笑的痛

～每碰一次，伤一次。

不碰又不会痊愈，

每痛一次还要强颜微笑

希望可以痛到麻木

然后失去知觉

就不需要再微笑

然后在等待痊愈

不知会等多久

等待另一道伤口，

还是另一道快乐～

只好等等吧

只有接受才会得到～

自己该为自己的执着与刁蛮付出代价

Love letter

As time goes by, yes! It's affordable for me now to get my own love letter in any supermarket~ 

However, this love letter is special! It's brought by my dad all the way from home. He brought it here just for me, he brought me some pong piah too which I don't like much.

I feel kind of guilty when I told him to bring the pong piah home, he ate and finish them on the spot :( 

I love this love letter not because I am a love letter fans, it's because I truly appreciate what my parents has did for me all the time.

Oh! And don't forget about the mango! It's supremely sweet~

Love my parents to eternity ❤️ I miss them already :( 

剥栗子的人

找到你那专属剥栗子的人吗？

找到了就珍惜吧

找不到就等等吧

每个人都有机会拥有幸福，不是不到，可能幸福来得迟了些

等等吧

接受果然比放手重要

你接受了他不再是剥栗子的人

你也接受了朋友之间的背弃

接受是完完整整的告一段落，接受新的开始

放手往往还是念念不忘，忘不掉也忘不了

所以，我在学习接受，接受被世界背弃，寻觅我的方向，然后再重新出发～

有离别才有重逢和珍惜

Photos explain thousand words 

幸福天

与家人在一起是最幸福的事！虽然无法弹琴给他们听，躺在沙发一起休息也不赖！很爱你们哦~

Escape from practice!

To escape from practicing, I will read the magazine. At least something to do with violin. I decided to take a break with my violin (him) let me cool down and understand you more.... You are not that easy to be under my control when I am BLARDY nervous. Let me find back my confidence and hug you once more later ... But not today 

要求太高

我是否要求太高，简单歌曲也拉不好。

是否应该静下来想想如何努力才好。

怎么办？很累:( 很想睡

拥有

人生中所拥有的，突然消失了。

今天你像神一般的在舞台上表演，明天未必能持续。

今天你拥有一班开心狂乐的朋友，明天突然感觉消失了。

今天家人能够陪伴，明天也会突然无人在身旁。

为什么我们总是会在拥有后失去？珍惜后伤痛。 不懂为什么年龄越大，越悲观，越多顾虑，累…很累

拥有都是为了等待失去

走着走着，就散了，回忆都淡了，看着看着，就累了，星光也暗了，听着听着，就醒了，开始埋怨了，回头发现，你不见了，失去了…

早餐

早餐很重要，是新的一天开始的原动力。朋友很重要，是人生遥远困苦之路的支柱。

我想我们能成为室友是缘分。再过一两年可能大家也就不在对方的身边了。

希望当我们可以享受着阳光和咖啡的时候，尽情享受。

愿您身体健康，天天快乐，我的好友坚室友:) 

公主起床啦

公主起床啦！快！快为了梦想而奋斗！没人理你，最好自己为自己打气！

打气打气，充气充气！

Likka 5 years old

Family is indeed important for me in my life now, I start to appreciate more about family especially when I have to stay in Singapore permanently. I appreciate mom cooks my favorite food, dad makes me nice orange juice and take away the best char kuey teow in town, drive me everywhere, I am likka Princess. I love them although they are noisy and naggy at times. I love playing music for dad and mom, I am still imagining times when I was practicing piano, he was reading the news and Mom was cooking~

How time flies, and this never stays longer and I have to be a loner to play violin for no one except the little animals sitting on my bed. Take away food everyday, take the train and squeeze with people everyday~ I hate life without family especially parents.

I know my sister has improved much, she's no longer that sister I hated when i was younger, she changed to be better and more caring person. I love her in that sense, every time when I get home I love to stick to her and make her go shopping with me. Best companion and I could feel the sisterhood once more in my life.

But why at times she will like a 5 years old who act cunning or perhaps she wants to win in every situation. When everyone told her its a loosing battle, she still wants to prove that she's right. She still has her top jealousy on top of everything, love and attention from the parents. She hated parents criticizing her, but parents always think that education is the most important component in our up bringing. They are strict and criticize their children frequently. It's responsibilities of the parents to tell the child that he/she is wrong. 

I appreciate them, but why my sis couldn't and she keeps thinking of jealousy why parents can't just love her without criticizing her. Well, I really hope she can think straight and don't spoil our long planned vacation. I will love to bring her everywhere she wants to be and eat the best food with her in town and play eat drinks with her in the chalet.

Please don't make me upset :( please do not get affected by any unnecessary circumstances. I have partially losing some important friends, and now you want me to even lose the great time with family ?

Always love you all~

In my heart will be always family come first, dream, friends, then money always come last.

Please stay ! 

完美主义之一丝柔情

戏剧终究是戏剧，现实生活认为无法发生。真的有人会爱和保护一个那么不起眼的女生？乱世中，真的命运会用红笔圈上这个女生的脸蛋，然后爱神降临？

收视率会爆红也因为人们现实生活中找不到戏剧里的左震，所以才会渴望，想看。也没多少个锦绣，可以那么真实，单纯，但是还那么起眼。

一个温热的拥抱，用力的紧握，又是多少个面对问题的人们所需要的。不管是家人、朋友或爱人，都需要这生活的一丝温暖。他是一个避风港，一个肯定，一个安全感。万事都会在这拥抱后，解决。飘泊在外的自己，也何尝没有渴望过这种安慰。当面对困难会有一只有力的双手把你紧紧握着。我却渴望不了而掉到困苦里去了。不是每个人都会像锦绣如此幸运。

若有一天我可以找到这一个怀抱，我将不会再错失机会，深知，这将会是万分之一的机遇。这辈子也有可能得不到，因为这象征完美，完美的爱。

撒娇

当你不再对某人撒娇以后，依赖的心态已经彻底除掉。

撒娇是为了引起注意，寻找安慰。当你清醒再怎么娇弱都不会有人怜悯之后，开始升华，自立自强。

改变不是变成另外一个人，但树立一个更坚强的自己。别人会问，哦，为什么今天那么漂亮，那么特别？

其实我平时都很漂亮很特别，只是和你们太熟络，我让你们看到一个最纯朴的自己。

当在朋友中学习成长，不会再奶声奶气之后，真正的我也就只有家人看得见了。

失去了能接纳你矫情的友人，往往心里一刺痛。

在盼望让我撒娇的人出现之前，我会更爱自己，让自己漂亮，让自己快乐。

期盼着真正快乐的降临.....

观后感

需要多少的努力才能站在舞台上发光。如雷的掌声响起，美妙几乎完美的音律令观众叹为观止。

听说表演者是抱病上战场，能够如此保持水准，还可以活泼随音乐摇摆，真令我佩服。

究竟需要付出多少分的努力才能达到如此境界，就连在旁的衬托表演者，有些表演至白发苍苍也还未到如此境界。

我很想成为其一，那就追梦吧～

Good Morning

To love myself more, to be more attractive, to appreciate the youth I have own. Girls, let's be pretty <3

What have you seen?

What have you seen from the window ?

Routine? greens? Reflection of self? Boredom of waiting? Structured route? Adventurous ? Stable ? 

At this point in time, I see routine, planned route but I would like a change, I would prefer a change which strike and twist my life!

I am blessed to be alive today, I want to do something different for a better tomorrow!

Give me strength and take away my laziness and tiredness ~ fingers crossed 

比翼鸟？

连鸟都会忠心直到永远，为何人不能？

总是残忍的抛弃

总是太多诱惑，太忙为理由

抛弃了另一半

一旦付出就应该坚守到底

打开心房接受的那一刻不是简单的

但是轻易说不和坚决是比这只比翼鸟还残忍

相信爱？体会爱？体谅爱？

感情这一块，我还是交白卷....

不敢也害怕

害怕拥有的失去

长久的短暂

Laying on the grass patch under the sky

Such lovely jog we had yesterday :)

Love the freedom, love the speed

The food was surprisingly good, the barrage was dark but it was cool to have picnic there...

Laying down is fun, watching the sky, discussing about the moon, clouds and SKY MAP!!! 

Such distress session for me, I have love this much :) please have more session on this instead of drinking.

I try to make friends, new friends, but to catch the dynamics, it takes time, when we have the dynamics, I am afraid, I will not be here anymore ~

Let's just appreciate the time we are together!

Cheers :) 

Stuck

I am very stuck here, like a bird has her wings fractured, a mermaid waxed in the bath tub, a turtle crawling and waiting for her chance to get back to the sea ~

I have a dream and a feeling of my dad driving his car all the way to Singapore, and I happily move all the boxes and belongings into his car! I jump and punch the air shouted loudly "YES! FINALLY!!!!"

I am stucked here, when can I leave this country? When ? 

It hurts, I sore.. I tried to be happy ~

Courage

I wish I will still have the courage to walk like this~ just like 10 years ago the 18 years old me, who choose not to be a princess, who choose to be adventurous, who choose to live difficult stand on her own feet, who cried and yell and hope for someone to hold her, to help her~ but eventually she walk herself through the pain~

I wish to have a right time to continue the journey, I don't have patience to wait, please, time please come, I am eager to move on like this, just like this teenage girl who has the courage to walk straight on the fence! 

真实会是这样吗？

表白真的会是酱吗？

还是其实没有那么坦荡？

戏剧永远都是戏剧

不磨合

1甜食，不吃甜到心苦的冰淇淋

2不穿名牌球鞋

3不戴G表，太大，太粗

4不喝不啤酒的酒，太甜，太怪

5不骑脚踏车

6不习水性

7话题区别

8不看电影

足以提示满满，没有一道适合的模型，放弃为上策！

My carebear

Care bear, where are you? 

Yooohoooo hello, care bear?

I am tired, can you please come and give me a hug?

Careee bear, my care.bear 

想离开～马上离开

想离开

马上离开

无拘无束的离开

受不了等待时机

很想制造离开的机会

走，好吗？

可以走吗？

不想呆在这

没有耐心等待离开

救我，放我走:(

界线

用力的画一条界线

狠狠的画

希望不会有误会

希望还会是友谊不变

用力的画

用力的克制

时间飞逝，应该很快变成习惯

为画界线加油

不要想，不要去想，不想去想

可以记忆删除？

重复去想，永远都是总折磨。

记忆删除，除~

寻觅

寻寻觅觅

一份开心的工作

一个心仪的对象

一个欢乐的生活

一群志同道合的朋友

时间飞逝，希望早日寻觅成功，与家人团聚，爸妈已老，何时尽孝？

甜

尝试吃甜，放入口中，甜散满，咀嚼后吞下，心却是一阵的苦。

然后，无法吞下第二块甜。嘴巴含着那块甜，想尽办法吞下却又吐回出来。

甜，真的那么难吃？

为什么我总是尝不到甜？

一杯酒，一碟苦瓜，我都觉得比任何一块蛋糕好吃。

甜，我几时才会爱上甜？

自信的音符

还没做到自信的音符～

还在摸索～

快，快坚强起来，努力，练习，直到听见那自信的音符，在舞台上闪耀！

不要放弃属于舞台的自己，加油！

要先让自己相信自己，才能让别人相信你！

问题乐器

歪了的琴键，走了音的玄

发了霉的感情，淡了的友情

惋惜？改善？

音律会还原。

情谊也会还原吗？

年初二之自拍

我，活在当下！我就是我，不管别人怎么说。我爱自己多一点。我会自立自强！

加油！

Too free on the first day of CNY

http://jingyan.baidu.com/article/4b52d702722fdbfc5c774b35.html

Very nice article hahah although I am not "sat luin" 

Keep this in case next time hahaha~ 

Note: too free during first day of Chinese New Year 

尖锐，理所当然，无视感受

大年初一，领悟醒悟非常重要。

我一向来做不好自己，有一部分的我不完美，不可爱。

我霸道，嫉妒，刁蛮，我不常站在别人的角度体会别人的感受。

我不正确的拒绝。尖锐不友善，狠心与快刀，我真不知我是怎么做得到。

是否长大了，应该开始控制牵制感情，需要柔情似水，通明搭理，不再乱发脾气。

再难也要做到。怎么能够忍耐忍受？ 要如何才是最好？我需要拿捏真实的自己与控制中的自己之间的交战。希望羊年的力量可以帮助我做到更好的自己。

加油！

婚姻是幸福的？还是束缚品？

我们在一起吧！当初那份协议是怎么开始？为什么可以边吵架边有孩子！然后为了孩子不停的忍受忍受！ 直到孩子也可以当别人啊妈也还是忍受忍受。

”忍”这个字是真的必要的？还是其实可以放下的！我宁愿孤独终老也不要成为婚姻的束缚！

因为孩子容忍，年轻时容忍婆婆，然后小姑，然后老了以后还没有与子偕老反而互相吵架！

我宁愿拍拖时发小姐脾气到被人给fired 我也不要不老实的做自己。嫁了以后还要忍。

我想我不相信婚姻！不会相信也不会出现天长地久。

不会也不可能～简直是自杀性把自己推向死亡坟墓

Happy Valentine Day to you

Paranoid waited for this post, I knew it will happen and it has happened :) 

Thanks for letting me a good freedom. The relationship has been hanging inside my heart for quite some time.

To be honest, I did admit i like you before but most of the time I got angry in front of you, I got messy in front of you, I became bad temper in front of you. I don't really know the reason. By all means, I would like to thank you for taking care of me this longest time to be a very independent person now :) 

I wish you a very happy valentine day 😍it's good you find a complemental Her at last. When will be my time to find a suitable him ? Pass me some luck, k? 

Putting this down, I feel I really can step out and to be out from Singapore. Knowingly if we are together, you are a stable man, I am an adventurous girl which will makes things not happen. Letting this go, perhaps I will quickly make a decision. 

等待

为什么人生总要活在等待里～

从小等待着长大

等待电梯

等待巴士

等待火车

等待交通阻塞

等待红绿灯

等待朋友赴约

等待一个人的主动

等待午餐

等待电脑软件开机

等待回家的一刻

等待妈妈的怀抱

该如何面对等待后的失去？该如何等待所该所要等待的？

耐心？暗示？珍惜？

为什么等待一点都不美，不爽，不浪漫，为什么人们总要等待存活在我们生活里～

啊～全都是⌛️

顿开

Wish you all well :D 有一种勇气叫做放弃

Lunch ~

Long time never had lunch together ~ good catch up~ hope you are not too tired, too occupied :) hope the best for you ~ 

Violin exam

Woohoo~ violin exam next year March! Looking forward! I want a distinction but I am lazy to work hard :X harder... Hardest 

Hope my plan worked out:

2016 grade 7

If possible audition 

And ... Germany 2017... Woohoo 

Shadows~

Wtf? I can't imagine I am doing this ~ actually I like my time alone but always get ~.~

Care and sick

Sick~ fall sick~ real sick~ running away from reality

Sick from physically to mentally~ sick from unforgivable emotion by thinking negative resolution 

Would I still be loved ? Be liked?

Is time to grow up by ignoring whether I am being liked being loved being the central of the world ? 

May be life is always this way, you ain't that important when you have ignore somebody until an extend. Breakthrough that extend and you deserve to be left out, cold and icy.

Get well soon, Ah Hua~ get well soon 

Outsider

Seems like I am an outsider today. Again is the matter of 4/5 I can still feel it, I can't ignore it. I am sensitive. I told myself not to do this but as much as I care, I couldnt resist myself from doing it.
As much, I become emotional, I am angry with myself probably. Not sporting, not happy, can't be that high too on a whole.

New year wish ?! What to do ?
Find a boyfriend so that I could get someone, one and only one for me and on my side.
I have no right to ask for more from a friend. No right and not right.

Let's be it. I hope I can cope, I try, I know I am wrong, but I can't do anything to prevent that happen. Fingers crossed, cheers to friendship forever~

I am always that kind of person who like to stick to original group, original people, original dynamics. I am emotional, sensitive when I care. When I am not, I will be cold and ignoring.

Happy Monday blues!