Monday, February 29, 2016

醉翁之意不在酒

茫茫人海中,谁都不迷上
千万人当中,无法被吸引

一个旅行,却突然敲醒了那股沉睡的情感
重来没有任何感情或深厚友情的他
突然,在人群中站立

迷上了,跟丢了魂似的
一直都在想念,盼望
每分每秒都有他的影子
重来就不会有如此强烈感觉的我
二十七年以来,还是第一次
心跳会加速,对话无法看眼神
不知该说些什么,去引他的注意

这么普通的他,却在我眼里充满着崇拜
这么老气的他,却在我眼里成为了成熟稳重

快要四十的人,却因为要买儿时零食而兴奋。
我忍不住偷偷的祈祷,让他买不到,下次我买给他=_=

到底是什么样的心态,我重来就不会这样想,这样做事
快疯了!
我希望做回那个不怪的自己,再去吸引他。
#祈祷


Sunday, February 28, 2016

I love today! Friday (26 Feb)

Yay! It's weekend and we were all out without the annoying friend :D At certain point, I think today no one dominating any topics and we were happy talking nonsense. I really love nonsense which distressed all of us.

Yay! He's sitting beside me and I just enjoyed to sit by his side although I don't really talk a lot with him. Improvement happens, today we talked quite much. Love it ❤️ regret never buy a cake tho. i was on the train with him for 3 minutes alone time but I was super bad in small talk... God help me please ? If you know he's the right person >_<""

Anyways, still quite happy to know his full Chinese name and silly me never get to see his birth date cos was too Hapz when hold his IC .. Kind of 受宠若惊, I hope I will be Normal next time and be myself more! 

It won't work if I keep on going to be shy and to be introvert and has nothing to talk with him. Love it when comes to the topic of chicken and menses hahaha ~_~ but how rare does this happen.. I hope I can, I hope I could, I hope I will get this right ❤️

Thursday, February 25, 2016

行动还是被动

其实,我是一个非常害羞的人,或许也是公主型的。以前童话故事都是等王子骑着白马来追公主。一等再等,等不到该等的王子,应该是报应。

因为从前有三个王子喜欢我。第一个另喜别爱。第二个送炒饭,苹果。到底是哪来的勇气可以送炒饭? 现在我连送蛋糕都害怕。第三个,送火龙果,我不以为意,以为这是人之常情。

一切,我都在当时想得太简单。根本没有想过别人的勇气。根本没有考虑,别人到底花了多少心思去喜欢我。我都是冰块脸,没有任何的反应。只有退缩,因为不喜欢。因为第一个感觉是不喜欢,没机会。

报应来了,现在中毒了,怎么办?

到底要多勇敢才能继续走下去。那么主动,会不会很奇怪?要不要赌一把?赌一把总比一直盲目等待好吧。

放手一搏?搞不好来个春天?勇气,你在哪里?


Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Annoyance


Everything seems annoy me everyday, why should I live ?
A) stupid lift never come in time and stop every freaking levels
B) due to stupid lift, always miss the bus downstairs 
C) even buying food have to queue for 15-20 minutes! Hell, it's my break!
D) need to find seat after buy food!
E) if not then eat in office and imagine you never step out of office for freaking 9 hours? 
F) stupid people in the mrt and doesn't move, and those behind keep pushing you 
G) stupid long queue because the frequency of the bus is long. Aunty push you aside, squeeze you aside
H) ridiculous consultant who pile up work for you and over promise deadlines
I) never tell you details about who to send the email and you have to wake up early and recall the email
J) join the project half way through, don't know head don't know tail
K) never get to enjoy good stuff (eg: traveling) but help to do all shit work for people who go overseas 
L) everyday freaking tired and don't have time for personal development ( music, language or even building another chapter of life)
M) I want my own room, own space, own time, why the others bother me? 
N) no more close friends, because they have girl friend
O) even your parents' password for everything, you need to freaking remember 
P) I rant it out here because I have no where to rant, everyone busy typing whatsapp but no one replying anything, such lousy communicated world is not commuting at all!!!!!!!!!!!
Q) Facebook and Instagram have nothing to see
R) the guy I like, doesn't response
S) after a break/ vacation, generally will become more Emo, it doesn't cure the Emo permanently
T) money spent but not extra happy
U) don't know what I want in my life l
V) very tired but feel like sleeping is wasting of time

I guess those annoyances are good enough ~_~